Last Chemo Treatment - Dec 1st at 9:30

Hi to all my bloggers!

Tomorrow is my last chemo treatment. Wow... tomorrow is my last chemo. Please pray for me. For some reason I am very teary eyed. I am finally to the last... heavy sigh. I have such mixed emotions. I am very emotional, nervous, utterly exhausted, utterly tired, sometimes I must remind myself to breath and happy all at the same time. But at the same time I know that I am: getting rid of the ovarian cancer cells, alive, getting back to my old self very soon, beautiful, faithful, smart, a good friend, funny, afraid of birds (that get in my house!), resourceful, looking forward to a VERY bright future, loving and a bright light!

Let's all focus on the positive "I am's". Do that for me, please.

I know my path has a purpose. I will follow.

I want to share a scripture with you all that Pastor Dan shared with me today. Thanks Dan.

"Have you never heard or understood? Don't you know that the Lord is the everlasting God, the creator of all the earth? He never grows faint or weary. No one can measure the depths of His understanding. He gives power to those who are tired and worn out; he offers strength to the weak. Even youths will become exhausted, and young men will give up. But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint"
Isaiah 40:28-31

Notes: Even the strongest people get tired, but God's power and strength never diminish. He is never too tired or too busy to help and listen. His strength is our source of strength. When you feel all of life crushing you and you cannot go another step. remember that you can call upon God to renew your strength. (NLT version notes)

I <3 U all and miss you even more,
Jude

Happy Thanksgiving!

Dear friends~

I wanted to wish everyone a very Happy Thanksgiving! We are spending the day at my sister Lisa's. I hope everyone has a peaceful, fun day filled with great food, friends and family.

I am on the downhill y'all and I can hardly wait to be done with the chemo. My last round is a week from Thanksgiving on Dec 1st. I'm almost there!

Thank you, thank you, thank you... from the bottom of my heart, for all the prayers, supportive emails, text messages, phone calls, flowers, gifts, meals, cards, care packages and positive thoughts.

All my <3,
Jude

Nearing the finish line...

Hi everyone,

It's been 9 days since round #5 of chemo. I'm getting near the finish line and the chemo is making certain that I will never forget how tough this has been. I spend my days at the oncologist getting fluids and iron or home on the couch watching TV or sleeping. Round #5 has all my blood levels low, I am anemic and food tastes like sand. On the upside, I found a cherry tootsie pop in my tote bag and it tasted fantastic! (Margaret I think that was from Nolan's treat bag you gave me)

I am so looking forward to post chemo days. I know this is starting to wear on Mark too. He's always tired and that is stress. Matt starts the wrestling season next week so that will be a good diversion. We will try to make the upcoming holiday season as less stressful as possible. My nieces, Linz and Carly, are coming over the Thanksgiving weekend to put up a few Christmas decorations. I treasure the time I get with them. As they get older I see them less and less.

The count down to my last round of chemo is 20 days to Dec 1st. After the last round my body will be able to start healing. Within 3-4 weeks I should start feeling better because I won't be slammed with another round of drugs! I am soooooooooooooooo looking forward to 2012. I hope that damn Mayan calendar isn't right!

Thank you all for the prayers, postive thoughts, uplifting cards, emails and text messages. Please keep a young woman, Rachel, in your prayers. In her short life of 19 years she has had 3 types of cancer. At 15 she had her entire right leg amputated, then a few yrs later she had groin cancer, then this past February she had part of her lung removed that was cancerous. Rachel is a kind spirit and is very upbeat. NUFF said, what do we have to complain about?

I luv you all,
Jude